i wonder if i have become an insufferable bore. i get up. i have a cup of coffee. get the kids to school. i work. till 7. make the kids dinner. i work. till 9. so we can survive. i am bored with the routine. i am bored with my life as i recount it.
it is the moments in between that save me. when i am in awe of the wisteria i planted growing like the vine in the tale of jack and the beanstalk. when my kitty gazes serenely at me with her yellow diamond cat eyes and does her best sphinx pose. when my son smiles so that his dimples show. when my son's friend who is 6'2" reaches out to me for a hug because he lost his own mother last year. when my son's godfather makes us a fine meal and does my grocery shopping. when i realize how grateful i am to be able to buy groceries! these then are the moments in between, when everything becomes not just tolerable, but safe.
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