the rs day

remember the guy who dumped me when he had someone else in back-up position? the guy that broke my heart? a few weeks after his mini-exploration with miss “oh- i guess there really is nothing new under the sun," he started trying to court me again!

at first, my entire being was just a bucket of rage. every encounter with him pretty much consisted of me throwing at him a litany of every expletive I knew. and i did seem to have a rather unlimited supply. of expletives. and anger. unfortunately for me, he was unbelievably persistent and painstakingly patient during his first attempt at re-entry. 

fact. the trust had not only been broken, it had been decimated. 

fallacy. he told me over and over how sorry he was he had hurt me. he said he would do anything to win me back. anything.  


fallacy. i did not think there were enough “i am sorry’s” in the world, to make me change my mind.

fact. I am sure most of you at this stage of the game would definitely advise one to just cut your losses. there is that theory, once a cheater, always a cheater. i knew this. but.


fact. oh! i wanted to believe in love.  

fact. i decided, after months of his pleading, to act from the premise there was hope; that there was a possibility we could mend the ties that bind; you know. come out stronger, more in love and more shining.

fact. i convinced myself it sounded good.

fact. dumb.